Each time after the sex he seems happy and not to worry much however that bothers me so much and I am more worried than him for both of us. We had sex numerous times thereafter and each time I request to use condom he refuse, all he ask me is to fuck him without condom to have the skin to skin feelings and he also remind me to ejaculate the cum outside his anal. We had sex and during the point of ejaculation I cum on top of his anal and not inside. Being top I told him he could be infected, and he say when I am close to ejaculating take it out from his anal which we agreed. 2 months ago I met a guy and we decided to have sex, I told him I'm positive, and he requested not to use condom (he wanted to feel the skin). Realizing I'm positive, I refused to play bareback now. I'm gay and I had numerous sexual relations with other gays, most of the time I had bareback sex with cum shoot inside anal. Hi doc, I was diagnosed positive in Jan 2008, with CD4 210, doctors have advised me to go for medication.